The Day After

Here I am the day after babysitting my niece who is One years old. She is such a fun little girl. I have just about the best times with her. The whole time we laugh we sing, and hug! She is my favorite little girl. I watched her be born. My brother and wife were kind enough and felt like they trusted me enough to be part of a such a beautiful and amazing experience. My sister-in-law was strong and determined and I gained so much respect for her that day and a half. It was actually my brother who I had to hold up, I am not sure he new what the heck was going on..He almost fainted a couple of times. But anyways, the point of the post, the day after babysittting my favorite little girl is always so hard. My husband and I always fight afterwards. He says I get grumpy and too emotional every time. I do not want to fight with him this time. I am going to make a conscious effort not too. I am going to go jogging after this post. So here are my feelings that are coming up...sadness. I am not sure how to express it..I am trying real hard to express myself..but I just cry. Has anyone else gone through this. I kind of need a way to look at this so I am not so emotional. I wonder if I could name it...it would be a little more not so powerful and all-consuming.