this website is very interesting since I am in the 2WW process. I am craving information on what is going on in my body now. I have felt through the whole IVF process like I know what is going on, but now I do not feel anything nor do the doctors call or check my blood level or check my ovaries..nothing. I am so happy the PIO shots are easy. I have no pain, just a little soreness, but I wonder if the progesterone is working. I mean, some points I feel a little twinge or cramp, but overall it is all emotion. Today I have been just exhausted. And I may be driving my husband crazy. He has said I have been whiny all day. I can not help it( in a whiny voice). hahaha
Seriously, I am getting annoyed with myself. I am just irritated at everything. I feel anxious and out of control. I do not feel anything in my body, so that makes me nervous. Then I feel something in my body, so that makes me nervous. Today after going on a nice walk to the beach, having a nice lunch, and then shopping for groceries, my husband seemed irritated at me. at least that was what I perceived. He said, he thought I needed a nap. Lets just get something straight. I have not taken a nap or needed a nap in the middle of the day since I was maybe 15. I have just always had lots of energy and too busy to take a nap. Well I am not sure what happened but I started arguing with my husband about who knows what and he argued back and snapped at me. I started crying and then I just exploded. I started crying hysterically. I ran into my room and tried to calm myself down. I put on my earphones and listened to a meditation from circle+bloom. before I knew it, I was sound asleep. I woke up an hour later, feeling refreshed and not so sad.
I woke up to the the smell of spices and vegetable soup. I walked into the kitchen and there he was just finishing up the soup. I hugged him, grabbed a bowl of soup and I felt so much better.
I have to say, I am an emotional wreck. Happy one minute and then about to cry and yell at my husband the next. Seriously I am going to need to get a handle on this. In the mean time I am going to eat all this Delicious soup!
OH and other good news: I am less constipated! YAYAYAY! You have no idea..oh wait..you probably do! If you have ever been pregnant or taking any kind of progesterone, you know how painful and agonizing it is to have your digestion slow down. I have been burping not stop. I finally feel like my belly is not hard and bloated. It is a great feeling!!! Here is what I learned: be careful..do not drink too much prune juice..not fun! And the coconut water is okay, but most of all it gave me a lot of gas.
Oh...I framed my two embryos. Here they are: 3 day transfer. 8 cell grade 2!
Congratulations!!! They are beautiful!!! Best of luck!
ReplyDeletethanks for your continued comments on my page. and embryos look good.
ReplyDeleteYour embies are beautiful :)
ReplyDeleteI think this waiting period is extra hard because with IVF, you are so busy and closely monitoried that it becomes a nice distraction. But now there's nothing you can do but trust your body and wait, which is so hard.
I'm really sorry you are going through an emotional roller coaster right now, but it's completely normal and understandable. Once you get that BFP (this cycle!) it will have been all worth it. Hang in there!
I know 2WW is horrible, you have pretty embryos! Just focus on how pretty they are and stay stress free. BE PUPO right now and just enjoy it!
ReplyDeleteYour embryos are gorgeous!!! Also so glad to hear the constipation is better - that is truly one of the worst symptoms of IVF. And I have to admit I laughed about you needing a nap. Get used to napping, my dear. It will be a lifesaver in your early pregnancy... So excited for you!
ReplyDeleteSweet pics!!! Hope the remainder of the 2WW goes by quick for you and you get lots of rest and TLC... and soup... from DH! Hang in there, exciting times!
ReplyDeleteI can so relate. I'm on my two week wait too. Waiting seems to be the hardest part! Gotta love the progesterone!
ReplyDeleteThey are amazing looking embies! Beautiful Babies!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on being PUPO. Now, here is to a fantastic second part of the cycle!
... one thing to add. The 2ww of my BFP-IVF cycle was the hardest hormonally. I had more hormonal/pregancy symptoms during those two weeks than through my whole first trimester. (((wink, wink)))
ReplyDeleteOh wow, congrats on coming this far. The emotions much be hard to handle at times.
ReplyDeleteYou have been through quite a journey I'd say! I think we might be much alike when it comes to fear and anxiousness around shots, blood-drawns and hospital experience. It's really scary but you made it! I'm impressed =)
sending so much love and luck to you, here to hold your hand through this.....
ReplyDeletewelcome to the 2ww! congrats on the beautiful embryos. we're here to help your through this.
ReplyDeleteI empathise with everything you're saying.. except I love daytime naps and have been having them regularly since egg collection! Gorgeous photo xx
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