I am going to be a dramatic women for the next couple of days. I am a nervous wreck for my baby...I do not care if I have to eat nasty food..I just want my blood level correct so my baby is healthy. I have done so much. Sooo sooo soo much to have this baby..and now..I feel extremely guilty. I feel if I was not not overweight..it would be fine. The doctors warned me that I was prediabetic. I lost 35 pounds before the IVF..but now...here it is staring me in the face. I have to live with this and I have to have thoughts in my head that are only positive..because I want my baby Alexander to be healthy. I am typing this at work and doing everything I can to hold back these tears.
So today...I am going to my machine and learn to use it. Not looking forward to being a pin cushion again!
then tomorrow..I have a 9:30am appointment with a dietician.
Right now...I am just really upset.
Oh no, I'm so sorry you have to deal with all this. Please don't blame yourself.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry but definitely don't blame yourself - Alexander will be just perfect now that you're getting treatment :) xx
ReplyDeleteYou are so strong to get to this point. You will beat GD! I hope the dietician will help you to get you on the right track fast and easy! (((HUGS))) and much love your ways!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear this. I have mine on Monday and I am scared I am going to fail. Just remember all that you have done for the baby up to now and how much more you will continue doing. Your baby will be happy and know you have done everything you could.
ReplyDeleteSorry for this bump in the road. From what I understand though- it is so common and can happen to anyone- and happy healthy babies are still the result.
ReplyDeleteAlso just wanted to say I'm sorry for being such a terrible commenter on blogs. My head feels in the clouds these days. But wanted to make sure to say thanks for your support- I don't know where I'd be without this blog community.
Aww don't be too hard on yourself! Hopefully if you follow the guidelines, and go in for regular checkups everything will be fine. Remember your emotional health is also important :) so don't beat yourself up for something you cannot control. My friend was also diagnosed with gestational diabetes and wasn't even over weight so it happens, and she gave birth to a beautiful healthy baby boy!
ReplyDeleteTry to do something fun to take your mind off a bit :) You deserve it!