Image via WikipediaI just realized why I may be having a mini Break down. I am not sleeping and I am crying and getting really nervous when I hear unsuccessful IVF stories. My brother's baby's birthday is this Sunday. Just another reminder that I am not in the in crowd. Everybody is going to be either asking me, when are you going to pop out a a baby, or there will be silence. I really am not looking forward to this. My Aunt and Uncle will be raving about their first grandchild as well. I can just hear it now, my mom making a speech or telling her sister, "oh, it is the greatest thing being a grandmother" and thanking my brother and his wife for bringing her so much happiness. I feel like calling in sick, but I can't. I love that little girl. She is the best..she is a bundle of Joy! But of course the decorations alone are my childhood. I was a big fan of Strawberry shortcake. and guess what they picked for decorations. Yes..Strawberry shortcake. You know, part of the joy of having kids is, you get to relive your childhood through them. I have always said I wanted my little girl to enjoy my childhood favorites like Hello Kitty, strawberry shortcake, my little pony. And if I could find her, rainbow brite. I am feeling a lot of sadness right now. Maybe I should just get some sleep and tomorrow will be brighter.