So here I wait for my next period to start..sometime February 10. I have never in my life been excited to get my period. But yes...I am counting down the days..19 more days. WOW! Writing that down just made it so much more real. breathing..give me a minute.!!
Okay..almost crying here..yep the tears are here! Damn it. This has been such a hard journey. I feel like I have been trying to keep my head afloat this whole time. I try not to be so dramatic, but this has been hard on me, on my relationship with my husband, with trying to keep professional at work, and painfully losing my control with my body in doctor's offices. Again, I have to give credit where credit is due. Thanks to this blog world. So many of you help me feel so not alone. Some of you...well a lot of you have given me strength.
I do not want to leave this post with just this.Ii want to say also that I have the most wonderful, patient husband. without him..I would be even more of a hot mess. In 2010 we found out we were infertile. It was a tough year with lots of fights. But when we look back..yes..we will think of the hard times. But with the hard times, there were many good times, like our trip to Maui where we snorkeled and read our favorite books on the sandy beaches,and ate lots of pineapple and fish, and drank coconut pina colodas! We also went to Yosemite and South Lake Tahoe. So we had some really amazing times..but within that time..were so dark times. Through this challenge in our life..I am learning to find a balance in life. And I know I am learning and growing as a person through this hard situation.
I do not want to leave this post with just this.Ii want to say also that I have the most wonderful, patient husband. without him..I would be even more of a hot mess. In 2010 we found out we were infertile. It was a tough year with lots of fights. But when we look back..yes..we will think of the hard times. But with the hard times, there were many good times, like our trip to Maui where we snorkeled and read our favorite books on the sandy beaches,and ate lots of pineapple and fish, and drank coconut pina colodas! We also went to Yosemite and South Lake Tahoe. So we had some really amazing times..but within that time..were so dark times. Through this challenge in our life..I am learning to find a balance in life. And I know I am learning and growing as a person through this hard situation.
I look forward to commenting on many of your blogs and sharing my story with you.
As the Stirrup Queen says, "Blogging is a conversation and comments should be honoured and encouraged. I like to say that comments are the new hug–a way of saying hello, giving comfort, leaving congratulations."
actually..I would love to know about you...so if you want please have fun answering some questions...
1) What is your story..do you have kids, still trying, what stage of Art(Assisted reproductive technology) are you in?
2) What is your blog about if you have one? and the name?
3) What are you doing to make yourself happy right now..hobbies, family, friends, tv shows?
4) What are you listening to in your car lately?
Best wishes and good luck to you!! I have my ivf appt set for the 16th of Feb. We'll be going on this journey together. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm with you, this is scary but will be worth it. We are doing our first ICSI february/march this year. So, you are not alone.
ReplyDeleteHi, here from ICLW! I'm in my IVF TWW right now. Wishing you lots of luck with your cycle!
ReplyDelete1. We have done several IUIs, medicated cycles, and 2 IVF cycles. 4 losses, no babies yet.
2. My blog is all about our infertility journey. http://lisabttc.blogspot.com
3. I love to read! It definitely helps me keep my mind off of things. I also do acupuncture.
4. Hmm, Jack Johnson.
:-)
Hi there-
ReplyDeletewelcome to blogging! Here's my details:
No kids, been trying 1+ year. 4 unsuccessful IUIs with clomid. Taking a month off, finding a new RE.
My blog is mainly about the fun I have in the fertility game: http://goteambaby.blogspot.com/
To make myself happy I work more than I should, run, do yoga, and read. I watch way too much Real Housewives of any city.
I've been listening to a LOT of Howard Stern lately! I just got a new car, and I received a year's free subscription to Sirius. I don't drive that much as I work from home. On my iPod you'll find Earth Wind and Fire, Rhianna, Phoenix, and Lady Gaga.
You are so close to start! how exciting! I am in the midst of an IVF/ICSI, myself. Best luck with everything during your cycle! #190
ReplyDelete1) What is your story..do you have kids, still trying, what stage of Art(Assisted reproductive technology) are you in?
IVF#2 w ICSI
2) What is your blog about if you have one? and the name?
Erika at Pollination Chronicles #190
3) What are you doing to make yourself happy right now..hobbies, family, friends, tv shows? dancing, music, friends
4) What are you listening to in your car lately?
lain dance music, my new favorite & and any world music always sounds delicious
Hey there! Looking forward to reading more of your story. To answer your questions:
ReplyDelete1. We've been trying for two years, and I was recently diagnosed with PCOS. I'm taking Provera now in preparation for my first round of Clomid.
2. My blog is mostly about our new journey. not27yet.blogspot.com
3. I bake a lot! Cookies, cakes, cupcakes--I'm so bad for us! I've also recently started watching Desperate Housewives on Netflix. I said I would never watch that show...but I think I might be addicted.
4. Lately, I'm loving Gavin Degraw, OneRepublic, Eric Hutchinson and Jack Johnson.
its exciting isnt it!!! you wont be too far behind me. My period is due today!
ReplyDeleteGood luck to you. I can only imagine how overwhelming this must be. I look forward to following you on this journey, through your blog.
ReplyDeleteGood luck! I never am excited to get my period except when I'm gearing up for a cycle, go figure! Kind of like BCP's when you're getting ready for an IVF cycle, just seems contralateral.
ReplyDeleteI have one child-a 4 year old son, an IVF/ICSI miracle. We conceived him on our first cycle, had a cycle in between with all abnormal embies, and now we are starting cycle 3, and most likely our final cycle. After our second cycle, we were moving onto adoption, but our insurance changed and we've been given another chance.
Our blog is called "Our Little Family's Journey" and is at http://ourlittlefamilysjourney.blogspot.com ...stop by sometime!
I am watching alot of TV to try and keep my mind off of the "what-if's" of our cycle. I am also crocheting a blanket for my son with colors he chose, however, I'm seriously debating taking it apart (I am halfway done) because one side of it is looking funny. I'm a perfectionist, type A, and it's really grating on my nerves.
On the radio, I listen to a mix, mostly new pop songs.
The ironies of the TTC journey- I too was s0o excited for AF to come this last cycle. We are doing IVF/ICSI#1 currently after 2 miscarriages and three failed IUIs.
ReplyDeleteHolding on tight with you on this crazy ride!
Hi. I gave yo an award. Head to mu blogto learn about it. Thank you for allowing me to follow your journey. :)
ReplyDeleteNothing feels quite as good as having a plan! So happy to hear you are on the road with IVF! I'm sending you lots of positive thoughts. I am just about to have my first FET so there are lots of nerves and excitement in my world!
ReplyDeleteHello from ICLW #81! Is this your first IVF? The waiting to start, and then the waiting to beta, are the worst parts of the cycle!
ReplyDelete1) What is your story..do you have kids, still trying, what stage of Art(Assisted reproductive technology) are you in? 4 miscarriages (all natural pregnancies); DOR/POF; poor egg quality (get pregnant but can't keep 'em); IVF to find the "needle in the haystack"; IVF #1 BFN; FET in the coming months. Oh, and no kids.
2) What is your blog about if you have one? and the name? The Port of Indecision (ICLW #81). Recurrent pregnancy loss, IVF, general complaining, some nutrition stuff. There's cussing. Lots of cussing.
3) What are you doing to make yourself happy right now..hobbies, family, friends, tv shows? Um, wine. And playing soccer.
4) What are you listening to in your car lately? NPR. Even in my foulest of foul moods, Wait Wait Don't Tell Me cracks me up.
hi from ICLW--
ReplyDelete1) IVF with ICSI attempted 4 times. Because of DOR only made it thru protocol with response to drugs first time. Lost triplets at 9 weeks. Now waiting to start IVF#5 if I ever ovulate this month to start drugs.
2) recently delurked to start blogging-- ournewplana.blogspot.com
3) walking on the treadmill while reading, playing my cello that i took up during this crap IF journey, enjoying my new city
4) i enjoy public transportation--getting road rage out of the picture has greatly increased my quality of life :) while riding though, i listen to nora jones, jason mraz, jack johnson.
good luck with your upcoming cycle!! having milestones to meet like periods arriving helps it not seem completely and utterly overwhelming sometimes!
How exciting! Glad you have a plan for IVF - it will be starting before you know it!!!
ReplyDeleteHi! Found you on the ICLW list. Just wanted to pop in and say that I totally understand the excitement over starting your cycle. We are pursuing IVF w/ICSI and I just got AF yesterday. I came out of the bathroom fist pumping (think Jersey Shore) and was so excited. It looks like I'm a little ahead of you, but I'll happily follow your journey and invite you to follow mine if you'd like to hear what's ahead! :)
ReplyDeleteICLW #148 The Deep Silence of a Long-Suffering Heart
Keeping my fingers crossed for your IVF!
ReplyDeleteLet's seem, I am a mama to my sweet Henry who is an IVF miracle. We are rolling on our FET for a second child.
I blog at htp://bio-girl.blogspot.com
I love to read and to play video games when Henry lets me :)
I love to listen to audio books. Right now I am listening to Mockingjay
ICLW #8
Good luck with everything!
ReplyDeleteI am going through my first IVF and I just had my extraction on Friday. Boy that was an experience. All the shots and medications for a 15 minute procedure! I was sore for about 3 days but feeling good today. I was suppose to have my implant on Wednesday, but it has been pushed back til next cycle because my LH Levels were too low. So I know how you feel about getting excited for your period! ha
Good luck with your up coming cycle!!
ReplyDelete1) just got pregnant with twins!! We tried for 2 1/2 years then finally got our miracles through IVF and rescue ICSI last December '10
2) my infertile confessions... self explanitory ;)
3) Just started prenatal yoga. I great stress relief. I also enjoy hiking, photography, and spending time with family and friends :)
4) A little bit Country and a little bit Christian rock. I ultimately listen to EVERYTHING, however.
Here from ICLW! Best of luck this cycle.
ReplyDelete1) None yet. Trying really hard.
2) booksbabiesthirties.blogspot.com
3) Acupuncture and working out.
4) I listen mostly to my ipod. Muse is one of my favorites.
Hi there...
ReplyDeleteI'm here from ICLW. Adding you to Reader so I can follow along with your journey. I hope that you'll be getting your BFP very soon!
1) I have PCOS and "hostile" CM, DH has low motility. Those things together led to our RE recommending we go directly to IUI. We were blessed with a BFP on our second IUI cycle and are now smack-dab in the middle of raising a toddler.
2) My blog is just about life in general. I ramble about whatever is on my mind at the time. The name is One Wheeler's World.
3) I'm pursuing my passion for photography, trying to get back into scrapbooking, spending as much time as possible with my two guys, and just trying to savor every minute of each day.
4) Actually, there's usually no music on in the car (I know...WHAT?).
Good Luck with your upcoming IVF, it is a very exciting time!!!
ReplyDeleteAs for your questions
1) What is your story..do you have kids, still trying, what stage of Art(Assisted reproductive technology) are you in?
I am currently 15 weeks pregnant with my first. Baby Mo, as we refer to it, was conceived during IVF #2, our diagnosis is bilateral blocked fallopian tubes due to ovarian cysts. Right now I am struggling with all the emotions that come along with being pregnant after battling Infertility for 4 years.
2) What is your blog about if you have one? and the name?
My blog is The Rocky Road To Motherhood, is my journey through Infertility to becoming a mom, and the life that happens along the way.
http://therockyroadtomotherhood.blogspot.com/
3) What are you doing to make yourself happy right now..hobbies, family, friends, tv shows? Lots of resting, spending time with friends and family and my Yoga and meditation.
4) What are you listening to in your car lately?
Talk radio, I am so emotional that listing to music makes me cry.
Happy ICLW
#33
This is such exciting news. I remember being excited to start my period for my IVF's. Wishing you all the best!!!
ReplyDelete1) What is your story..do you have kids, still trying, what stage of Art(Assisted reproductive technology) are you in? I have done two IVF's first one was with ICSI second one wasn't. We used donor eggs from my sister. Our first IVF resulted in twins, sadly they passed away. With our remaining embryos we did a frozen embryo transfer and had another baby that passed away. More about my story on my blog
2) What is your blog about if you have one? and the name? www.cloudywithhope.com
3) What are you doing to make yourself happy right now..hobbies, family, friends, tv shows? Lots and lots of Netflix. I'm also going to school part time too.
4) What are you listening to in your car lately? 30 seconds to mars.
*hugs*
ICLW #56
This is a great way to do ICLW! Great idea :)
ReplyDelete1. After clomid, injectibles and 3 rounds of IVF, we now have twins who are three. I also had an unexpected pregnancy and miscarriage last year.
2. http://jjiraffe.wordpress.com is the blog I write, and every day in 2011 I'm trying to write about living joyfully.
3. Writing, eating in restaurants, going on outings with my family :)
4. Lately, I'm listening to Deerhunter.
Wishing you the best of luck on your cycle!!!